The Bride-to-be Twitch

I haven't lost my mind; I have a tape back-up somewhere.  ~Author Unknown

 

As I get closer to the wedding date, I'm noticing that I now have the Bride-to-be Twitch. It's not quite like the ones you see on Bridezilla. You know the look--eyes roll back into their heads, they come back and they're red or black, the nails grow into claws and the teeth turn into fangs. I haven't gone that far yet but I'm definitely getting the wrinkles in my face, the weird wedding dreams, having emotional silent breakdowns when just watching a movie or walking down the wedding aisle in Wal-Mart or reading other brides' blogs and realizing that I'm not the only one feeling this way. Worrying if everything will fall into place is my main concern right now. Not perfect but just into place. I wasn't all that worried six months ago but now it's like this doesn't match, why did I pick this, what was I thinking, did I really think about this, I obviously didn't think that through, etc and etc. I believe that every bride has the Bride-to-be Twitch and they have their own type of twitch. Mine has the form of blinking my eyes a lot when I'm thinking anything wedding. Blinking and moving side to side---almost like I'm scanning something. That's during the day. At night, when it's time to shut off my brain and my wedding thoughts, they just reappear in dreams. Then I wake up and start thinking about everything all over again. Can't wait until the day when I have the non-wedding thought. But until then, it'll be the following: Is that vendor ripping us off? Will my dress be ready? I hope she gets her dress soon. Why did I pick such a difficult version of blue? Why does that require more money? Didn't I just say that I was cool? (INSERT EYE TWITCH NOW)