Women be thinking

I just read an article about the over thinking and stressing and why women do this. I can honestly say I am a queen at this. I over think everything all the time. The mental ticker tape is constantly moving. (If you want to read the article, it’s at http://lifestyle.msn.com/your-life/make-every-day-great/article.aspx?cp-documentid=31788265).  I’ve always been like that. I constantly think about bills, money, what to do when I get home, next week and planning for the months ahead. I’m always thinking about my husband, my family, work, life in general and it’s always more than I need to. The article made some good points that over thinking saps one’s confidence and not necessarily feeling a sense of control. I feel that when I go from 1 to 100 in my thought process. If either one of us is really quiet (usually me), my husband and I will ask the other “What cha thinking?”

We just want to make sure we keep communication open. It’s a little hard for me because I don’t really like talking out loud about myself. Honest, I don’t. My response to the question is usually “…a million and one things…” His response to that is tell me the first 10. Typically I can break it down; I need to get a money order for the electric bill, I can’t remember if I left the curling irons on, I need to call Mom when I get off, I hope Dad is doing okay, what are we going to have for dinner, I’m tired but need to put away laundry and do the rest of the dishes (just FYI-these are all the thoughts I just had). Why do I do that!!! It never stops either. If I’m really focused on something, the thoughts will slowly creep in from behind and just float on top of my brain until I’m done with my task. Even when I’m enjoying something, mind is still going. Going to bed is the worse. I could be laying there and it’s no holds barred. I don’t even try to think about all of this. I hate it. I saw a comedy show with Wanda Sykes and she was talking about this exact thing. Women go to bed and think about everything in the world. Then they’ll look at the clock, realize how late it is and think to themselves why can’t I go to sleep? I couldn’t stop laughing at that because damn-that’s me! My brain would be going crazy and then I’ll see that it’s 4:14 am and I have to get up about an hour and would have the audacity to ask myself why can’t I go to sleep. It’s insane. It’s been since I was a kid and as an adult, it really REALLY sucks! I’ve tried all I could; sleep aid, tea to make me sleep, no caffeine two hours before I go to bed, no TV, eye mask to block out any light. I even tried visualizing a midget kicking my thoughts out of my brain. Please forgive me because I have no idea why I choose midgets to beat the crap out of my worrying thoughts but some times it works and sometimes it doesn’t. I don’t know. I’m weird. But to hear Wanda Sykes talk about women over thinking made me realize I’m not the only one that feels this way. The article really opened my eyes and one of my goals this year is to work on that. I need to quit over thinking everything. If there was ever a contest on who can over think the most, if I didn’t come in first, I would be a very close second.