Babies and babies and no, I'm not pregnant

I think the first question my husband and I were asked after we got married was when the babies are coming. Some people waited a few weeks before asking. A lot asked me personally a week or two before the wedding (mainly my family). I guess marriage and children go hand and hand. You get married and then you have children. The timeline definitely varies---it just depends on the couple. Before we got married, I wanted to have kids right away and Ian wanted to wait. He stated that we should at least wait a year so we can have time for us. The first year is going to be all about discovery and growth about each other individually and as a married couple. I understood what he was saying and agreed. We should wait a year and we are. After we got married, I understood it more and more. The first couple of months, he and I were trying to figure out time for each other plus working different shifts, spending time with family and finding time to sleep. Trying to figure out a child in the middle of that would have been crazy. Ironically though, I’ve had babies on the brain. I see pregnant women everywhere. I work with mainly women (except for one) and they talk to me about kids all the time. My husband even catches ‘baby fever’ whenever we’re out and pass the baby section whether toys or clothes. So while we’re enjoying us as a married couple, we’re talking baby this and that.

Then, one of the biggest artists in the world, Beyonce announces her pregnancy on the MTV awards. I was on Twitter watching the show and people starting posting the infamous picture of her in the orange gown holding her baby bump. I didn’t believe it. I thought well, she’s just posing in a very weird way. I changed the channel to watch L&O SVU. I turned back just before her performance. She’s done with the performance, smiles at the camera, drops the mic, unbuttons her jacket, turns to the site and rubs her belly. My husband was sleeping but I kept saying “Oh my god, she’s pregnant!” Then they showed her husband who looked so proud and happy. All of a sudden, any thoughts about pregnancy that I had were now tripling in size. It literally became an obsession for me to read up on pregnancy—not so much babies. First it was Beyonce, and then it was Tia Mowery Hardict from her reality show. Co-workers and friends are pregnant. Eventually I had to tell my husband that before I go insane thinking about children all the time, maybe we shouldn’t talk about kids as much. I just want to focus on my new venture of writing a children’s book and our marriage. Of course though, since I’ve never written a children’s book, I’m in my researching phase. What better to research what children like and not like, what they read and don’t read than to speak to children? Smh.